Writing a story

In life,
If, we only see what we are looking for-
And, it is possible for us to be a part of writing our own story-

And in my life, I cant find the ability to trust-
Then, maybe all I am looking for (concentrating on, aware of, expecting),
is the possibility of being let down, deceived, left, unwanted, forsaken.

If, this is what I am looking for-
Then, it is all i am finding-
and it becomes the story that I write for myself.

And

I want to write a different story.
I Will write a different story.