Breathe

I breathe you in
just as swiftly, I breathe you out again
Forcing the air
out of my lungs
The morbid taste wiped off my lips
Aha! No, not saddened
but with oblige
The air I know I need
feels like the death of me
In a moment I realize I am
perceiving death when truth be life
There is a difference between enough to live
and actually living
As between truth and condemnation
Desperation arise, sucking air in
burning my throat and lungs
like my first cigarette
I hold the breath within
as if this one is the last of its kind
Gasping its gone again
You're gone again
as quickly as you came